Mom

As many of my friends/family reading my blog know, I lost my mom to cancer 3 years ago (as of 7-14-09). Obviously this event in my life had a huge impact on me and it continues to effect me, sometimes on a daily basis. This year I decided (listen to that, "I decided" like God doesn't have anything to do with it!?!?!) it would be an easier "anniversary" because more time has passed. NOT THE CASE! I thought that I would busy myself thru the day and just remember good times and make it more of a sentimental day than a sad one. WELL, let me tell you, you can run/hide/deny/ignore your feelings for a while but eventually they come back to bite/haunt you!?!?!!?

My mom was a great lady. She lived for her family. She was very unselfish. She was huge part of my life. I get told that I am very maternal the way my mom was. Everyone leaves a legacy. If my mom's legacy is a determinator for the kind of life she led, than I can honestly say her life was a good one.

I don't know that time will ever make it easier for me. I don't know that July 14th will ever be considered a "good day" but I do know that I watched as my mom was baptized and I know that Mom is in Heaven. I know that the cancer that took over her body no longer has control over her. I know that Mom is watching over us. I also know that Mom is proud of whom her children turned out to be. I know this because Mom spent her life showing us love and support. I praise God for choosing Mom to be my mother.